Sorry to be cruel, no story here. I just wanted you to see this video of OK GO. I showed one of them last year on the treadmills but I just love their timing. They are a refreshing change from the heavy metal stuff that you have no idea what they are saying.



I hope you enjoyed this one and there is so much more energy these guys put out; go find them on YouTube. I'm done. Gotta sleep. Bye bye.

As I look out the window I see the ground disappear like my hopes for tomorrow. I know only one hope and that is my family. Each day that passes from this life brings them one step closer to the end of them and mankind. Now that I see things from a different light I can also see more of the horizon. I can see how beautiful life is when you live it instead of watch it. Remotes are for something you're not a part of in your daily life.

Each thrust I prayed for forgiveness for the distance I helped create between me and my boys. We all reached an age when I knew that tomorrow would be than nothing I could give. I see the stars beginning to shine and again there is hope. As I softly and slowly reach the beginning of a new day, far removed from the needs of what will come; today I find hope.

I am now off on my own voyage. They have their lives but it's my turn at 42 (soon to be). I see life anew and I am becoming more comfortable with it. So now after twenty some years of hopes and promises I am trying to move on. I have never been to college before but now it is time to live! That alone scares the Hell out of me, almost.

What college enrollment really makes me think are several things and I will just list them:

1) Am I to old to start for the first time?

2) I have a granddaughter that I live for and I want to be with her!

3) I have a son, that when he softens up, is going to be the best father. No parent is great at first.

4) Pray to God I can find a good job after I graduate to pay for the hopes and prayers I am following.

5) One last hope at love..... Not love for anyone other than myself. I want to die knowing that I did live life and not just exist.

6) Most of all I want God to know I love Him even when I disobeyed His law.

I don't know what tomorrow will bring but today I am willing to take it on. Eight hour a night at work plus two classes every nine weeks, for four years. Can you understand why my stress level pegged the line? Sadly enough I want to help people. My stress is bad but others oddly enough I do help. I feed to a positive point.

Just leaves me with one question..... What about me in the end? I guess only God knows and I'm not tell'n.

P.S. About the Pinwheel... What goes around, comes around!

Starting to love sports or at least the after game.

First of all, I can not believe I watched the game. I could feel the crunch and the shoulder pad brazing my face as it forced past to sack yet again... never mind. I will not try to dazzle anyone in words when tonight was all about moves.

I will say that even from my point as a non-sports fan I loved the game. Never two better teams playing a real game. A fight all the way and a wonderful play in gaming. I will however give proper respect to Manning for all that he achieved in the game tonight. He was not in it for himself, it was more than the team, it was all about you. The man had something to give not something to prove and it showed.

Spectacular plays on both side and I for one loved what I watched. Great game (smack on a few butts, hopefully that wasn't your wife)!

   I patiently wait here at the opening of our den and watch the snow cascade upon   the valley. Slowly I feel the chill of the north winds beneath my fur as it bites at my bones; still I wait knowing you will soon be home. Our pups yelp in anticipation of your return.

  I call to the moon only to feel the sad return of silence. I bow my head in the remembrance of past years and happier days. Beyond the horizon darkness greeted me and I stared back into his face. His cold dark eyes looked away in fear of knowing his own fate.

   The morning sun opened its warmth on a thankless night and gave new light to hope. My heart slipped further into the abyss of my memories. Deeper I descended in to the thoughts of a warm spring day when we frolicked in the woods as we made our way to the meadow. Each time you rolled me over and took your hinds to kick me into the air I loved your strength. The warm spring sun leads us to the stream to quench our thirst. The cool mountain water tingles as is runs over our tongues. We lay in the sun together taking in the sun. I could feel the pups and I knew where I needed to be.

   Suddenly the pups sat waiting; the north winds stopped blowing. I could feel the pups on my shoulders and breathing down my neck waiting for mom. Through the snow I saw my girl across the valley. I bolted off the rock to meet you but the pups got there first because they tripped me up. They rolled her and she tossed  lil' pup into the air (my first born) and caught him high and kicked him back up for fun. I missed my little one. Towards home we bounded through the winter snows but not before we played in the winter on the hillside. Each one of us rolling  in the snow and shaking off the day. 

   It is so good to have you home, the wind stops but the snow continues as it bring the day to a wonderful winter wonderland.

I know I should be in be for work tonight but I made the mistake of looking and found yesterdays dismay on my doorstep. I pulled back only to recoil and lash out. I don't usually do this but I am mad.

This Is my story. I was the one taking the bullets, I was the one calling my friend back. YES, I HAVE THE RIGHT TO ASK WHO YOU ARE! That was my life on the line. That bullet barely missed my face.

That was a trail I rode my horse on. Can you imagine me pushing a giant horse into the river and making him stay? Can you imagine me calling to a child of 15 when I was only 16 to come down to safety?

No one told me that the truth would be so wrong. I was told the truth would set me free but I guess I need to learn to shut up again.

Sorry for sharing. I guess I will be simple from now on. Never mind, don't wake me up when September ends.........

Thanks~Cuddle Me Not.~Strider