I turned my back on God and saw His mercy. I feel and lost my way but God just keeps holding on. God gives me all the right answers to your questions, but I am left in the dark about my own life. Maybe I am just to... maybe.. I will give no hope. Hope is tomorrow.Maybe:(

I took on my father's troubles; not a pretty penny to flip into the wishing well but I did it because it cut so deep? Did I want to much? To much? Dad is important! My sister said he is your problem now but she doesn't know I will bolt!!!!!!! I did not sign up for another kid! I am so close to the bottom line, a Rapid City will lead me back home. Or maybe I will take up the saddle again. I would rather ride the range than talk about another snap shot.

A silly thought but have you ever riden a cow? I have! The important part is riding a horse like a blanket. Spreading love like life them like yourself is a part of a whole and loving what you are doing will make you whole?

This time of year we share; Sammy and I shared so many times. We smelled the fresh snow and tromped more than a few times. And Sammy being Sammy, he made a snow angel of the both of us. It was love and you know what? When Sammy got up (all 1,750 pounds) I was still on his back, bareback.
Time to go.

Keep the Faith~ Cuddle :P

Sometimes you wish yesterday happened to be today. I thought my son forgot my birthday but in my heart I knew he didn't. Zac tried so hard to contact me; a few missed calls later and we finally talked. I miss my son. I don't think I can describe how much I miss the silly fun we had or the little pissy moments we shared. Zac may never know how much he means to me but he is my life, he is that little point that turns a frown upside-down.

My heart has been at odds lately. I have Zac, who is 1,800 miles away.I have Jake (and that hurt just to type his name) whom I miss so very much. I also have Josh and that is a love I will never get back. Tic-tock, where has time gone? When I saw Josh the other day life was normal for a moment...

I'll finish this later, after talking to sissy I'm not in the mood to talk.

I said it earlier today and now it is happening! I said it would be a cold day in Hell before I ever went to this kind of place again, guess what? Six inches and still snowing in South Carolina. Nobody here remembers the last time it snowed here. Sampson is having a blast (first time with snow), he can't eat enough of the fluff, and my winter gear is coming in handy. Some days you do finally get what you miss. Today was a blessing all the way around, I"ll explain that when I get back.

Keep the "WHAT?"~ Scott

Nanna, mom, did we do enough together? I feel you slipping through my fingers and I can't grasp these sands that are slipping through my fingers. Was I the son you finally wanted? Did I make you proud Nanna? I tried so hard Nanna, mom, but I never felt like I measured up, never! I never meant to disappoint you but I suppose we all have to wait for that final failure.

I know I can never get your approval, but what if you just touch my brow and whisper a little kiss like you both do. Nanna, mom, I'm sorry for being so caring that I lost myself like you did.

Sorry to be such a cry baby but I am proud I can do it for the right reasons.